Thank you for taking the time to read my blog.
My name is Arman Roodsaz and this is my story.
I remember a past conversation between me and one of my favorite teachers vividly, I had just watched the Wolf of Wallstreet and was fired up to become successful (or my younger self-definition of being successful). I told my teacher that one day I will become the new Jordan Belfort and that I will have more money than I could ever spend. So, after I finished high school, as the next step towards my goal, I enrolled in a business major. I started full of excitement thinking that I was doing what I wanted. I remember laughing and almost ridiculing a close friend because of her aspirations of studying Environmental Sciences, I used to tell her that she would end up saving a bunch of ducks for a living. A standpoint I feel ashamed for today. I was a hypocrite because I loved wild animals while I had no problem with eating them, I wanted to be seen as a good person yet thought only of myself, I claimed to love nature but did nothing to protect it. I kept telling myself that there is nothing that one man can do, which is a toxic point of view on every occasion.
I spent most of my time in the gym to feed my ever-growing ego and ate meat at least 3 times a day because I was convinced of it being essential for me as an “athlete”. This might have worked for me the first half-year but at the start of the second half I started having trouble with getting out of bed, I was losing my motivation and sense of purpose in life. My eyes finally started to open (better late than never). I started asking myself why I was feeling so down, maybe this wasn’t the path for me? Was I really living and as I wanted, I was full of fear? I thought that I had no time to waste if I wanted to reach my goal, I can’t quit, I can’t quit, I can’t quit I kept saying to myself. I tried to shove those feelings in a box in my head and ignore them as I continued on the same path, but then at the end of the year, one of the best things happened to me that could’ve happened. I had a burnout, which might not sound so positive and definitely did not feel like a good thing at the time. My brain had stopped working and every letter that I read felt like torture to me, every day was heavy and I felt hopeless. Finally, it was time to listen to that little voice in my head which I had previously locked away. It was time for change.
I quit business school and started looking for a new major. The motivation was no longer money but to do good and live as happy as possible. I stopped eating meat and became a vegetarian, I started thinking twice about the consequences of my actions and started to respect everything a lot more. I even enrolled for the major that I was making fun of, Sustainable sciences. I quit going to the gym and chose different forms of exercise instead. I started reading books and focussing on developing myself in a sustainable matter. I started opening my mind. I started meditating, something I could have never envisioned myself doing. And now 2 years later, I feel much better. Although quitting was one of the scariest choices I have ever made, I am glad that I did it.
In this blog, I want to share the lessons I learned along the way to everyone who needs it. For everyone who feels the same but does not know where to start. And take everyone with me on the journey to further self-improvement because I might be doing a lot better, but there is still much to learn. I will focus in this blog on a sustainable way of:
– Improving mental and physical health
I hope you come along with me on this journey to better my life. And please do not feel any hesitation to reach out to me and ask me anything.
How does that sound?